If You're In My Shoes, Would You Quit College?

First week of the new semester, there were already tears in my eyes. Stress? That must be it! I couldn't find any better answer to that. As I listen to the first ever lecture of the brand new subject in this semester, I found that I am the only one who couldn't understand what was being taught at all! I thought to myself, "She must be speaking some foreign language unknown to me!" But others don't seem to have any problem with the subject. So I conclude, I am stupid! Anyhow, I managed to hold my tears back and save myself from the embarrassment.

Things didn't go my way. We initially planned to ignore the core papers which we just sat for last semester first *Yes, we already know we failed from the way we attempt the paper*, and take the optional papers that we are studying this semester externally. We would then take outside tuition in other institution to make sure we could pass the papers in one seating. However, our hope crashed just like that when we found out that we could only sit for the optional after we have passed the core papers. How could anyone concentrate so many papers when there are already 2 extra subjects and assignments, which accumulate to 4 subjects this semester, not to mention if we were to reseat the "confirmed" fail papers!

After days of calling everyone that could supply us with suggestions and alternatives and seeking help from the programme supervisor, we came to a very brave decision. There were limited alternatives. I could stay and continue in the college and try to pass my internal as well as external. Both internally and externally are different subjects, which mean less time to concentrate for each subject, more time consuming doing the assignments and less possibility to pass! Or, I could quit or hopefully defer my studies for a year and use the one year to take as many external papers as possible with the outside tuition as guidance.

Hmm.. Note that I am already in my second year, last semester in Advanced Diploma. If I take the first option, I might need 2 years or more to get my Advanced Diploma cert. The second option on the other hand needs 1 year or more to get my ACCA cert.

So my final call is to quit or defer my Advanced Diploma, and concentrate fully on my external papers. I am making one of the biggest decisions in my life. With what I've chose, I might end up giving up the chance to get an Advanced Diploma cert and if I fail my external papers, I will end up getting nothing but more reseats, and a very late cert. Sigh... The waste of time and money both ways...